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It's been such a whirlwind of a journey, but look - we made it.

There's something about who you are. I can't quite place my finger on it but somehow you make me so giddy, weak in the knees, and everything in-between. Sure I get angry and upset over miniscule things but you always seem to love me regardless. No matter how many times I annoy you, you never let it get in the way of who we are and what we could be. I'm so passionate about our love, I'm so passionate about you.

We've been through hell and back and I do not wish what we've been through on anyone else. However, I am extremely grateful for it at the same time because without the hardships, I would never have realised how serious this all was to you and we wouldn't be where we are today.

You've shown me a side of life I didn't even know existed. You showed me that yes, someone can actually stay. Someone can care. Someone can make you laugh till your stomach hurts, someone can make the most boring day exciting just by being here. You showed me that love isn't just about touching and kissing and physical things, but how someone treats you.

You're such a kind, caring person. Funny, smart, witty, beautiful, amazing, reasonable, committed - and that's only just a few adjectives I can think of right now.

I don't know where I'd be without you. You've made such a big impact in my life and I couldn't thank you more. Thank you for being who you are, for not being shy around me and reminding me that I'm allowed to be myself. I still constantly get butterflies whenever I see you. I'm such a child around you and I don't even care. Being with you has reminded me that I shouldn't put constraints on myself.

I know they say we're too young to know what love truly is and that we're just too naive. You changed me and my entire world. People can say what they want but I know for a fact that whatever we have is different.

So here's to us and more years to come
I adore you, my love.

BLESSINGS: A SUCCESSFUL ONE YEAR

Wednesday, 11 April 2018


It's been such a whirlwind of a journey, but look - we made it.

There's something about who you are. I can't quite place my finger on it but somehow you make me so giddy, weak in the knees, and everything in-between. Sure I get angry and upset over miniscule things but you always seem to love me regardless. No matter how many times I annoy you, you never let it get in the way of who we are and what we could be. I'm so passionate about our love, I'm so passionate about you.

We've been through hell and back and I do not wish what we've been through on anyone else. However, I am extremely grateful for it at the same time because without the hardships, I would never have realised how serious this all was to you and we wouldn't be where we are today.

You've shown me a side of life I didn't even know existed. You showed me that yes, someone can actually stay. Someone can care. Someone can make you laugh till your stomach hurts, someone can make the most boring day exciting just by being here. You showed me that love isn't just about touching and kissing and physical things, but how someone treats you.

You're such a kind, caring person. Funny, smart, witty, beautiful, amazing, reasonable, committed - and that's only just a few adjectives I can think of right now.

I don't know where I'd be without you. You've made such a big impact in my life and I couldn't thank you more. Thank you for being who you are, for not being shy around me and reminding me that I'm allowed to be myself. I still constantly get butterflies whenever I see you. I'm such a child around you and I don't even care. Being with you has reminded me that I shouldn't put constraints on myself.

I know they say we're too young to know what love truly is and that we're just too naive. You changed me and my entire world. People can say what they want but I know for a fact that whatever we have is different.

So here's to us and more years to come
I adore you, my love.

Lately, I've been learning a lot about who I am and where I want to be. I've been purging book after book on self-discovery and guides to adulting that I think I've somehow caught myself up in a web of who I think I should be as opposed to who I am.

I've tried to create this picture of myself with a pristine life that everyone should envy when in reality my life is in boxes and I'm living off 5 outfits (due to moving). I don't have my shit together - I'm not perfect. I've gone through lists and lists of who I should be and who I want to be that I've completely ignored the girl right in front of me. I'm not someone who buys big brands, live in a perfect black and white world, or has tonnes and tonnes of friends which causes her phone to constantly be blowing up. I don't go out every night and I spend most of my time either with my boyfriend or I'm at uni stressing about probably nothing.

My life isn't finished, I'm constantly a work in progress but I'm discovering who I am more and more every day. I'm beginning to love myself more and more and all I wish is that you're doing the same too. There's that famous quote that talks about if you're standing still, you're really not moving forward. You might think your life is great at the moment but it's not going to stay that way. We have to continually move forward and evolve. In 2 years, you won't be the same person you are right now as you're reading this.

I'm not mad at my old self - in fact, she made me who I am today. Don't beat yourself up about your past. We've all made mistakes and we're all still learning. Grow from them - don't dwell on them.

Don't worry about being up to speed with other people. Just because someone your age right now is married and is expecting a mini, don't feel the need to do the same. Remember everyone is running their own race. There's no rush to do anything - do it all in your time. Focus on you! Don't let people get to your head. The worst thing you could do is let people control your thoughts and actions. Focus on who you are and where you want to be. Make your dreams a reality. Tell people how you feel. Don't hold back just because you're worried about what people think.

The saddest thing I see are such beautiful people with incredible ideas and dreams get shot down just because a single person didn't like it and didn't think you were capable or made fun of you for it!

Don't be who the world wants you to be - what a waste of such a great life. Stay in your lane and make your life what you want it to be. What screws us up most is the picture of what we/others think our lives should look like. Yes, it's always good to have a goal, but you can do it your own way, at your own pace.

I spent so much of my high schooling career waiting for it to be over so I could move on and get to the next stage of life. Looking back at it now there were so many moments where I was physically present, but I wasn't present. So many moments I missed because I was thinking of the next thing instead of enjoying where I was right then and there. Since then, I've learnt so much about myself and others around me just because I was actually present. I'm in no rush now, I'm happy taking each day as it comes. 

To whoever this may concern: don't be so in a rush to get to another stage of your life. You have an entire life. Take it as it comes. 

Until next time X


I'M STILL FINDING MY WAY

Tuesday, 10 April 2018


Lately, I've been learning a lot about who I am and where I want to be. I've been purging book after book on self-discovery and guides to adulting that I think I've somehow caught myself up in a web of who I think I should be as opposed to who I am.

I've tried to create this picture of myself with a pristine life that everyone should envy when in reality my life is in boxes and I'm living off 5 outfits (due to moving). I don't have my shit together - I'm not perfect. I've gone through lists and lists of who I should be and who I want to be that I've completely ignored the girl right in front of me. I'm not someone who buys big brands, live in a perfect black and white world, or has tonnes and tonnes of friends which causes her phone to constantly be blowing up. I don't go out every night and I spend most of my time either with my boyfriend or I'm at uni stressing about probably nothing.

My life isn't finished, I'm constantly a work in progress but I'm discovering who I am more and more every day. I'm beginning to love myself more and more and all I wish is that you're doing the same too. There's that famous quote that talks about if you're standing still, you're really not moving forward. You might think your life is great at the moment but it's not going to stay that way. We have to continually move forward and evolve. In 2 years, you won't be the same person you are right now as you're reading this.

I'm not mad at my old self - in fact, she made me who I am today. Don't beat yourself up about your past. We've all made mistakes and we're all still learning. Grow from them - don't dwell on them.

Don't worry about being up to speed with other people. Just because someone your age right now is married and is expecting a mini, don't feel the need to do the same. Remember everyone is running their own race. There's no rush to do anything - do it all in your time. Focus on you! Don't let people get to your head. The worst thing you could do is let people control your thoughts and actions. Focus on who you are and where you want to be. Make your dreams a reality. Tell people how you feel. Don't hold back just because you're worried about what people think.

The saddest thing I see are such beautiful people with incredible ideas and dreams get shot down just because a single person didn't like it and didn't think you were capable or made fun of you for it!

Don't be who the world wants you to be - what a waste of such a great life. Stay in your lane and make your life what you want it to be. What screws us up most is the picture of what we/others think our lives should look like. Yes, it's always good to have a goal, but you can do it your own way, at your own pace.

I spent so much of my high schooling career waiting for it to be over so I could move on and get to the next stage of life. Looking back at it now there were so many moments where I was physically present, but I wasn't present. So many moments I missed because I was thinking of the next thing instead of enjoying where I was right then and there. Since then, I've learnt so much about myself and others around me just because I was actually present. I'm in no rush now, I'm happy taking each day as it comes. 

To whoever this may concern: don't be so in a rush to get to another stage of your life. You have an entire life. Take it as it comes. 

Until next time X




I think it's so easy to get stuck on what could've, would've, and should've been. It's so easy to get caught up in the past and let it haunt us to the point where we're so insecure about who we are and what our life has become. It's so easy for the past to break trust and tear people apart. We constantly let it consume us and we're stuck at 3am wondering why any of it happened in the first place.

See the thing is, without the past, we wouldn't be here today. Sure, people have made some bad decisions - think Hitler, Stalin, Pol Pot, Osama Bin Laden, Satan, your friends, your parents, your partner, you.. and the list goes on. Without those people, do you really think you'd be who you are today? Yes, what some of the people on that list did were terrible, but without that we wouldn't have formed our own opinions, we wouldn't have life (cheers parents!), we wouldn't have learnt very important life lessons (think of all the petty fights you had in high school), you wouldn't be you.

We have such a tendency to jump to conclusions about people as soon as we find out about their past. I am not innocent in this at all - neither are you. At some point in our life, we have jumped to conclusions, not giving people the chance they deserve. I am such a believer in second chances because I believe that people change. Are you the same person you were this time last year? No. People are constanting changing, creating new ideas, forming new opinions, changing appearances, moving friend groups, evolving. What happened a few years ago might've been bad, but they're a new person. Now don't get me wrong, people don't change overnight. But I believe that through time, people slowly start to realise what is right and wrong and why things should or shouldn't matter. Everyone does it at their own pace - be kind. Remember that people are still learning.

I know how easy it is to let the past constantly take control of your mind. Let me tell you, it's not easy but you can, and will, get through it. Just like people take time to change, it takes time to let go of the past. To let go of the pain, embarrassment, jealousy etc. But today I want to let you know that you will get through, but you will take time. You can't rush healing.

"We are not meant to stay wounded. We are supposed to move through our tragedies and challenges and to help each other move through the many painful episodes of our lives. By remaining stuck in the power of our wounds, we block our own transformation. We overlook the greater gifts inherent in our wounds -- the strength to overcome them and the lessons that we are meant to receive through them. Wounds are the means through which we enter the hearts of other people. They are meant to teach us to become compassionate and wise.
- Caroline Myss

The past isn't going to change. You may think it's left your mind but prepare yourself because you never know what small thing might trigger it. You might think 'Oh all that healing was a waste of time!" but think about how quickly you'll get over it again. You've done it once, you can do it again.

Friends, I'm trying to be kind with my message but sometimes I think we all need a solid kick in the backside, I know I do right now. Healing can be hard, and letting go can be tough, but if we're not consistent with wanting to let go then we'll never get there. You have to stop looking at their profile, listening to songs that remind you of bad times, constantly replaying scenarios in your mind wondering what you could've and should've done different. Time to put yourself first. Don't let the past ruin something that could be so good.

Your life will get so so so much better when you are willing to understand mistakes and forgive yourself/others.

So here's what I thought of posting by itself but then decided to write a long post about;

Forget the past, it has already forgotten about you. 

Until next time X

HI IT'S ME, YOUR PAST

Friday, 9 March 2018



I think it's so easy to get stuck on what could've, would've, and should've been. It's so easy to get caught up in the past and let it haunt us to the point where we're so insecure about who we are and what our life has become. It's so easy for the past to break trust and tear people apart. We constantly let it consume us and we're stuck at 3am wondering why any of it happened in the first place.

See the thing is, without the past, we wouldn't be here today. Sure, people have made some bad decisions - think Hitler, Stalin, Pol Pot, Osama Bin Laden, Satan, your friends, your parents, your partner, you.. and the list goes on. Without those people, do you really think you'd be who you are today? Yes, what some of the people on that list did were terrible, but without that we wouldn't have formed our own opinions, we wouldn't have life (cheers parents!), we wouldn't have learnt very important life lessons (think of all the petty fights you had in high school), you wouldn't be you.

We have such a tendency to jump to conclusions about people as soon as we find out about their past. I am not innocent in this at all - neither are you. At some point in our life, we have jumped to conclusions, not giving people the chance they deserve. I am such a believer in second chances because I believe that people change. Are you the same person you were this time last year? No. People are constanting changing, creating new ideas, forming new opinions, changing appearances, moving friend groups, evolving. What happened a few years ago might've been bad, but they're a new person. Now don't get me wrong, people don't change overnight. But I believe that through time, people slowly start to realise what is right and wrong and why things should or shouldn't matter. Everyone does it at their own pace - be kind. Remember that people are still learning.

I know how easy it is to let the past constantly take control of your mind. Let me tell you, it's not easy but you can, and will, get through it. Just like people take time to change, it takes time to let go of the past. To let go of the pain, embarrassment, jealousy etc. But today I want to let you know that you will get through, but you will take time. You can't rush healing.

"We are not meant to stay wounded. We are supposed to move through our tragedies and challenges and to help each other move through the many painful episodes of our lives. By remaining stuck in the power of our wounds, we block our own transformation. We overlook the greater gifts inherent in our wounds -- the strength to overcome them and the lessons that we are meant to receive through them. Wounds are the means through which we enter the hearts of other people. They are meant to teach us to become compassionate and wise.
- Caroline Myss

The past isn't going to change. You may think it's left your mind but prepare yourself because you never know what small thing might trigger it. You might think 'Oh all that healing was a waste of time!" but think about how quickly you'll get over it again. You've done it once, you can do it again.

Friends, I'm trying to be kind with my message but sometimes I think we all need a solid kick in the backside, I know I do right now. Healing can be hard, and letting go can be tough, but if we're not consistent with wanting to let go then we'll never get there. You have to stop looking at their profile, listening to songs that remind you of bad times, constantly replaying scenarios in your mind wondering what you could've and should've done different. Time to put yourself first. Don't let the past ruin something that could be so good.

Your life will get so so so much better when you are willing to understand mistakes and forgive yourself/others.

So here's what I thought of posting by itself but then decided to write a long post about;

Forget the past, it has already forgotten about you. 

Until next time X

I'm not exaggerating, my heart, body,  and soul aches to live in New York.

In high school, I had friends start a blog (now deleted) named New York Girls At Heart. Back then, I had a super cringe blog (which is also now deleted) but I clearly remember being so annoyed because that was me! I'm a New York City girl at heart! Why on earth didn't I think of that name in the beginning?

Ever since I had a sense of my surroundings, I became strongly attached to city environments. Sure they're the dirtiest, full of a lot of dodgy people, but something about the tall buildings, the hustle and bustle of students and business people rushing to their next appointment just really excited me. City vibes can tend to feel very tense, but at the same time, it's a very relaxed. I love how people are in their own headspace and just very determined to get where they want to go. Can't say I love traffic much, but that's fine because there's something about walking through town (not at night obviously, eek!). It's a sense of independence. I don't think I've ever come to the city and not found what I need - it's got everything!

Tall apartment buildings, everything very close to each other, city lights at night, the laughter bursting out of students waiting to cross at the lights.. I love cities - how lucky am I to be study in the centre of Auckland.

But oh, if I could, I would love to study and live in New York.

I'm not quite sure what drew me to New York in all honesty, but I remember when I was wayyyy younger, I discovered NYC in all it's glory on Pinterest. I spent countless hours searching and pinning pins to my travel board and I was so excited. I promised myself that one day, I would live in central New York.

Shortly after that, I discovered my love for the TV show 'Friends'. Who the heck doesn't love Friends?! I've rewatched the series multiple times and I could never get sick of it. Just their lives in themselves made me want to move to New York. Sit on the couch in Central Perk (which isn't real), go for a run with Phoebe in Central Park, and chill out in Monica's apartment.

Then, I become obsessed with YouTubers, and while most of them lived in LA, a large majority lived in, you guessed it, New York. I started watching their daily blogs purely so I could see what living in New York was like. Let's just say, it made me even more excited.

Flash forward a few years and I'm 1 year into a relationship with the sweetest man. One day out of the blue he said, 'When we're older and you have your degree, let's move to New York.' *heart eye emoji* *screams* Let's just say it was music to my ears. All of a sudden, whenever we would go out, New York would appear everywhere we went. On people's t shirts, names of food dishes, billboard signs, and the list goes on. I've finally opened up a savings account, and hopefully it'll go from $1 to thousands. I've changed all my background papers to New York as inspiration, and I'm constantly checking up on rentals ;)

Basically this blog post is just informing you guys that I keep getting signs that I should live in New York - maybe one day it'll be a reality... at least I'm really hoping for it.

Until next time X


NEW YORK DREAMING

Thursday, 1 March 2018


I'm not exaggerating, my heart, body,  and soul aches to live in New York.

In high school, I had friends start a blog (now deleted) named New York Girls At Heart. Back then, I had a super cringe blog (which is also now deleted) but I clearly remember being so annoyed because that was me! I'm a New York City girl at heart! Why on earth didn't I think of that name in the beginning?

Ever since I had a sense of my surroundings, I became strongly attached to city environments. Sure they're the dirtiest, full of a lot of dodgy people, but something about the tall buildings, the hustle and bustle of students and business people rushing to their next appointment just really excited me. City vibes can tend to feel very tense, but at the same time, it's a very relaxed. I love how people are in their own headspace and just very determined to get where they want to go. Can't say I love traffic much, but that's fine because there's something about walking through town (not at night obviously, eek!). It's a sense of independence. I don't think I've ever come to the city and not found what I need - it's got everything!

Tall apartment buildings, everything very close to each other, city lights at night, the laughter bursting out of students waiting to cross at the lights.. I love cities - how lucky am I to be study in the centre of Auckland.

But oh, if I could, I would love to study and live in New York.

I'm not quite sure what drew me to New York in all honesty, but I remember when I was wayyyy younger, I discovered NYC in all it's glory on Pinterest. I spent countless hours searching and pinning pins to my travel board and I was so excited. I promised myself that one day, I would live in central New York.

Shortly after that, I discovered my love for the TV show 'Friends'. Who the heck doesn't love Friends?! I've rewatched the series multiple times and I could never get sick of it. Just their lives in themselves made me want to move to New York. Sit on the couch in Central Perk (which isn't real), go for a run with Phoebe in Central Park, and chill out in Monica's apartment.

Then, I become obsessed with YouTubers, and while most of them lived in LA, a large majority lived in, you guessed it, New York. I started watching their daily blogs purely so I could see what living in New York was like. Let's just say, it made me even more excited.

Flash forward a few years and I'm 1 year into a relationship with the sweetest man. One day out of the blue he said, 'When we're older and you have your degree, let's move to New York.' *heart eye emoji* *screams* Let's just say it was music to my ears. All of a sudden, whenever we would go out, New York would appear everywhere we went. On people's t shirts, names of food dishes, billboard signs, and the list goes on. I've finally opened up a savings account, and hopefully it'll go from $1 to thousands. I've changed all my background papers to New York as inspiration, and I'm constantly checking up on rentals ;)

Basically this blog post is just informing you guys that I keep getting signs that I should live in New York - maybe one day it'll be a reality... at least I'm really hoping for it.

Until next time X















Hi friends,

It's been a few months and as bad as I feel about my long awaited return, I must admit the few months off made me realise a few things.

I started this blog as a platform for inspiration and so many of you loved this blog throughout all of last year. I based it around my experience as a worship intern and no, I don't regret it, but I am taking a bit of a turn.

No don't worry, there's no blog name changes or anything like that haha, but I am going to start making it more personal, and more relevant to my life now - as a first year university student.

Yes! Correct! Ya gal is finally going to uni! But getting to that decision was not easy at all. After applying for one uni, then dropping out because I didn't feel as if it was right for me, then getting into my next uni very last minute (praise the Lord!), I finally felt comfortable with my decision. I start my classes tomorrow and I guess you could say that nerves are indeed, taking control of me. I am, however, calm in the fact that I know God would not have opened this up for me if He didn't intend for me to do it. I know He's got this and I am just going to go about trusting Him with everything I do.

It's funny. I was saying to my boyfriend today that I honestly don't remember what school was like at all. I don't remember the assignments, classes, and I don't remember being stressed - even though I definitely know that I was. After my 12 years of schooling, I don't remember it. Sure I remember my friends and being so happy to go home at the end of the day - but it's all become such a blur.

Walking into orientation last week, I forgot how comfortable high school made me. How I was so reliant on a bell to tell me the time, how it was easy having the same group of friends for 5 years and not having to worry about meeting new people because you knew everyone.

So here I am - walking into a year of growth, busting my brains, balance, expanding my friend group and figuring out how the heck buses work (yes I'm one of those people who never use public transport, whoops).

I'm feeling confident about this year, and don't worry, you'll be hearing more from me.

Until next time X

GETTING BACK ON THE GRIND

Monday, 26 February 2018














Hi friends,

It's been a few months and as bad as I feel about my long awaited return, I must admit the few months off made me realise a few things.

I started this blog as a platform for inspiration and so many of you loved this blog throughout all of last year. I based it around my experience as a worship intern and no, I don't regret it, but I am taking a bit of a turn.

No don't worry, there's no blog name changes or anything like that haha, but I am going to start making it more personal, and more relevant to my life now - as a first year university student.

Yes! Correct! Ya gal is finally going to uni! But getting to that decision was not easy at all. After applying for one uni, then dropping out because I didn't feel as if it was right for me, then getting into my next uni very last minute (praise the Lord!), I finally felt comfortable with my decision. I start my classes tomorrow and I guess you could say that nerves are indeed, taking control of me. I am, however, calm in the fact that I know God would not have opened this up for me if He didn't intend for me to do it. I know He's got this and I am just going to go about trusting Him with everything I do.

It's funny. I was saying to my boyfriend today that I honestly don't remember what school was like at all. I don't remember the assignments, classes, and I don't remember being stressed - even though I definitely know that I was. After my 12 years of schooling, I don't remember it. Sure I remember my friends and being so happy to go home at the end of the day - but it's all become such a blur.

Walking into orientation last week, I forgot how comfortable high school made me. How I was so reliant on a bell to tell me the time, how it was easy having the same group of friends for 5 years and not having to worry about meeting new people because you knew everyone.

So here I am - walking into a year of growth, busting my brains, balance, expanding my friend group and figuring out how the heck buses work (yes I'm one of those people who never use public transport, whoops).

I'm feeling confident about this year, and don't worry, you'll be hearing more from me.

Until next time X


It's Victoria Secret Fashion Show season.

For a lot of girls that means it's "I regret the fact that I've only eaten junk and haven't been working out" season.

See the thing that really frustrates me with social media is that it has a specific way of capturing your attention and then deceiving your perception of reality. It has a way of saying, "if you were this way, or if you did this particular thing, your life would be so much easier." It makes us all insecure - no matter our size, shape or colour.

Don't get me wrong, I've totally been fooled by this. I scroll through my Instagram feed daily and all I see is this exact thing. This morning I was scrolling through and a particular picture of Bella Hadid came up and I stopped and thought "I bet if I was as skinny as her, I probably might have it a bit easier." I wanted to slap myself. (Editing Sarahs note: just remember even the people we see on social media aren't perfect - they struggle with just as much stuff as we do.)

See, as someone growing up being bullied because of my weight and the way I looked, it was so easy to find myself wishing I was those models I would see on Instagram or on the TV shows I would watch. I would try take selfies of myself where my body would actually look skinner than it did. I would try multiple diets and sometimes I would skip meals because I thought that the less food I consumed, the less I would weigh. Sometimes the people that would bully me the most would be some of my closest friends and during high school, that made me think that just because I looked a certain way - people just wouldn't love me.

That reigned true when it came to relationships as well. In high school I constantly liked boys that didn't like me back - and I blamed it all on the size of my body. I thought that just because I wasn't as 'hot' or pretty as other girls, a guy would never love me. When my current boyfriend came into my life (my first - and hopefully my last boyfriend!) he made me feel so beautiful. He would constantly remind me that I was the most gorgeous girl he had ever laid his eyes on - not just because of the way I looked, but because of my soul as well. He'll kiss my forehead and remind me that I'm beautiful in my own wonderful way and that yes, I am capable of being loved.



And folks, that's exactly how God sees us.
We are His beautiful creation and I felt as if God wanted me to write this post because there are so many people reading this that don't realise their worth. So many people who compare themselves to supermodels or famous gym junkies. So many people who forget that man looks at the outward appearance, but God looks at the heart.

Isn't it crazy to think that God looked down at the world and thought that the one thing missing, was you? He thought the world just needed a person like you. He didn't create you to compare yourself to others just because they have nicer hair, a hotter body, straighter teeth. Guys, all I can imagine when we compare ourselves to others, is God just weeping. Weeping because to Him, you're such a beautiful work of art. Weeping because He blessed you with so many gifts and talents and yet all that matters is the fact you don't think you're perfect. Weeping because to Him, you are so perfect.

Image is everything to everyone these days. Of course there's nothing wrong about wanting to look nice and feeling confident with who you are but the message I need you guys to hear today is that what's the point of having a pretty exterior with a dreadful interior? I'm talking about the people that are drop dead gorgeous but as soon as they speak it's just toxic. And I don't mean their breath smells bad - I mean that their thoughts and their actions and their views on things. Okay now don't get me wrong, I'm not saying you have to be perfect. We all think bad things and yeah our views on things aren't always going to be the same as someone else's. But once we start pushing the garbage out of our lives - the more beautiful we become.

Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as elaborate hairstyles and the wearing of gold jewellery or fine clothes. Rather, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God's sight.
1 Peter 3:3-4

If you're to get anything out of this post today, please let it be this;

YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL. God created you in His image and I don't know about you, but being made in the image of God? That's pretty epic. He gifted you with gifts and talents and He loves you so much, He continues to bless you no matter what you've done or how far you've drifted. He loves you for you. He looks at you and He is in awe of you, His dearest child. You are fearfully and wonderfully made, and folks - God makes no mistakes. YOU HAVE A REASON AND YOU HAVE A PURPOSE. Don't let models on Instagram or the guy that gets all the girls in your favourite movie take you away from the fact that you were brought onto this earth for a reason. You are the way you are for a reason. And yes it's fine to diet and work out - don't get me wrong. But look to being a better version of you - don't try be someone you're not. Comparison is the devil - know your worth. Charm is deceptive and beauty is fleeting, but the Lord is perfect. 

You are altogether beautiful, my darling; there is no flaw in you.
Song of Songs 4:7

Until next time X



MAYBE IT WOULD BE EASIER IF I WAS SKINNIER

Thursday, 23 November 2017



It's Victoria Secret Fashion Show season.

For a lot of girls that means it's "I regret the fact that I've only eaten junk and haven't been working out" season.

See the thing that really frustrates me with social media is that it has a specific way of capturing your attention and then deceiving your perception of reality. It has a way of saying, "if you were this way, or if you did this particular thing, your life would be so much easier." It makes us all insecure - no matter our size, shape or colour.

Don't get me wrong, I've totally been fooled by this. I scroll through my Instagram feed daily and all I see is this exact thing. This morning I was scrolling through and a particular picture of Bella Hadid came up and I stopped and thought "I bet if I was as skinny as her, I probably might have it a bit easier." I wanted to slap myself. (Editing Sarahs note: just remember even the people we see on social media aren't perfect - they struggle with just as much stuff as we do.)

See, as someone growing up being bullied because of my weight and the way I looked, it was so easy to find myself wishing I was those models I would see on Instagram or on the TV shows I would watch. I would try take selfies of myself where my body would actually look skinner than it did. I would try multiple diets and sometimes I would skip meals because I thought that the less food I consumed, the less I would weigh. Sometimes the people that would bully me the most would be some of my closest friends and during high school, that made me think that just because I looked a certain way - people just wouldn't love me.

That reigned true when it came to relationships as well. In high school I constantly liked boys that didn't like me back - and I blamed it all on the size of my body. I thought that just because I wasn't as 'hot' or pretty as other girls, a guy would never love me. When my current boyfriend came into my life (my first - and hopefully my last boyfriend!) he made me feel so beautiful. He would constantly remind me that I was the most gorgeous girl he had ever laid his eyes on - not just because of the way I looked, but because of my soul as well. He'll kiss my forehead and remind me that I'm beautiful in my own wonderful way and that yes, I am capable of being loved.



And folks, that's exactly how God sees us.
We are His beautiful creation and I felt as if God wanted me to write this post because there are so many people reading this that don't realise their worth. So many people who compare themselves to supermodels or famous gym junkies. So many people who forget that man looks at the outward appearance, but God looks at the heart.

Isn't it crazy to think that God looked down at the world and thought that the one thing missing, was you? He thought the world just needed a person like you. He didn't create you to compare yourself to others just because they have nicer hair, a hotter body, straighter teeth. Guys, all I can imagine when we compare ourselves to others, is God just weeping. Weeping because to Him, you're such a beautiful work of art. Weeping because He blessed you with so many gifts and talents and yet all that matters is the fact you don't think you're perfect. Weeping because to Him, you are so perfect.

Image is everything to everyone these days. Of course there's nothing wrong about wanting to look nice and feeling confident with who you are but the message I need you guys to hear today is that what's the point of having a pretty exterior with a dreadful interior? I'm talking about the people that are drop dead gorgeous but as soon as they speak it's just toxic. And I don't mean their breath smells bad - I mean that their thoughts and their actions and their views on things. Okay now don't get me wrong, I'm not saying you have to be perfect. We all think bad things and yeah our views on things aren't always going to be the same as someone else's. But once we start pushing the garbage out of our lives - the more beautiful we become.

Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as elaborate hairstyles and the wearing of gold jewellery or fine clothes. Rather, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God's sight.
1 Peter 3:3-4

If you're to get anything out of this post today, please let it be this;

YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL. God created you in His image and I don't know about you, but being made in the image of God? That's pretty epic. He gifted you with gifts and talents and He loves you so much, He continues to bless you no matter what you've done or how far you've drifted. He loves you for you. He looks at you and He is in awe of you, His dearest child. You are fearfully and wonderfully made, and folks - God makes no mistakes. YOU HAVE A REASON AND YOU HAVE A PURPOSE. Don't let models on Instagram or the guy that gets all the girls in your favourite movie take you away from the fact that you were brought onto this earth for a reason. You are the way you are for a reason. And yes it's fine to diet and work out - don't get me wrong. But look to being a better version of you - don't try be someone you're not. Comparison is the devil - know your worth. Charm is deceptive and beauty is fleeting, but the Lord is perfect. 

You are altogether beautiful, my darling; there is no flaw in you.
Song of Songs 4:7

Until next time X





For the first time in 13, almost 14 years - your girl finally left New Zealand.

Hopping on that plane was full of a lot of nerves and emotions. For someone who's only been on a plane once since coming to NZ when she was 5, she was so nervous, she was actually calm. Thankfully one of my friends I was going with was in the same boat as me so it made the experience a lot better.

They flight was only 3 hours (which is your average roadie) but I was so incredibly bored. Of course I was the only person who had nothing to do. I thought many times of writing a blog post but I was nervous of people around me seeing what I was writing - stupid isn't it?

Anyways, we got to Sydney and at first it really didn't feel like I was in a different country at all. The hustle and bustle of Parramatta felt exactly the same as being in the centre of Auckland city. The people were incredibly friendly and the food was just as good.

It really only started to sink in as I was going to be last night when I was on a call with my boyfriend. "It feels like you're just at a friends house... just in another country." It was strange to hear that. Being in another country was such a surreal feeling (even though Australia isn't that far from NZ but anyways) and I was nervous but so excited. I mean Australia is full of bugs, snakes, and boys that don't know limits but God had placed a certain peace over my heart and I was suddenly not as scared anymore.

Leaving the people I loved most, knowing I can't just run to them when something went wrong, was slightly terrifying. I was so far and it was lonely. But God brought me to Australia for a reason and He will never give me anything I can't handle.

Cast all your anxiety on Him because He cares for you.
1 Peter 1:7

So friends, don't be a slave to fear. Remember that God is always there right beside you, guiding you. He will never give you something you can't handle.

So with that being said, Hillsong conference, I'm coming for ya 💥

Until next time X

I WOKE UP IN SYDNEY

Wednesday, 15 November 2017



For the first time in 13, almost 14 years - your girl finally left New Zealand.

Hopping on that plane was full of a lot of nerves and emotions. For someone who's only been on a plane once since coming to NZ when she was 5, she was so nervous, she was actually calm. Thankfully one of my friends I was going with was in the same boat as me so it made the experience a lot better.

They flight was only 3 hours (which is your average roadie) but I was so incredibly bored. Of course I was the only person who had nothing to do. I thought many times of writing a blog post but I was nervous of people around me seeing what I was writing - stupid isn't it?

Anyways, we got to Sydney and at first it really didn't feel like I was in a different country at all. The hustle and bustle of Parramatta felt exactly the same as being in the centre of Auckland city. The people were incredibly friendly and the food was just as good.

It really only started to sink in as I was going to be last night when I was on a call with my boyfriend. "It feels like you're just at a friends house... just in another country." It was strange to hear that. Being in another country was such a surreal feeling (even though Australia isn't that far from NZ but anyways) and I was nervous but so excited. I mean Australia is full of bugs, snakes, and boys that don't know limits but God had placed a certain peace over my heart and I was suddenly not as scared anymore.

Leaving the people I loved most, knowing I can't just run to them when something went wrong, was slightly terrifying. I was so far and it was lonely. But God brought me to Australia for a reason and He will never give me anything I can't handle.

Cast all your anxiety on Him because He cares for you.
1 Peter 1:7

So friends, don't be a slave to fear. Remember that God is always there right beside you, guiding you. He will never give you something you can't handle.

So with that being said, Hillsong conference, I'm coming for ya 💥

Until next time X

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